When i read Ryan Lindley Lacano's beautiful repost yesterday about how wonderful our world was when we were kids , light bulbs in my head started turning on ... not simultaneously , but one by one...resembling a bird's eye view of office lights in skycrapers turning on when darkness descends at dusk.
One of my Contemplations is that...
We live in dual worlds, primarily as citizens of the world called BEING . at the same we are regular tourists in another place called the PIXELATED world.
As much as our religion, all the self help books that we've read and the all the positive but general advice of a friend or a shrink... in our solitude we sometimes find ourselves in the vastness of being alone, sometimes lost , sometimes bored..... yeah, Fucking bored!
we sometime try to understand why and we blame so many minute things that seem to be the reasons that contribute to the nothingness in the the world that we build for ourselves or maybe what our parents gave us.
but at the back of our minds we know that to live in the world of BEING is also a state of EVERYDAYNESS... the repetitive cycle of the things that we choose as something we like to do, to have, to hold, to eat, to drink..... that someone we make love to, to play and create with, to talk to.... the God to pray to.... The principle to fight for and sometimes to die for.
But instead of teaching ourselves and our children a MINDSET of GRATEFULNESS, we escape and run to the busy controversial pixelated world... to get that buzz....to have that feeling that resembles ALIVENESS.
Y E S... it is that world where approval or virtual LIKEDNESS is slowly becoming the basis of self esteem.
Yup... editing and re editing random thoughts, I am here...
HERE, where emotions are something that we see
😍 yet not feel. When greetings like happy birthday , condolences, get well soon, feels cold... almost nothing.
HERE where posts bordering on Idiocy is liked by the thousands in a matter of minutes and posts on reference to great life books , quotes, poems, songs that mean so much are rarely read.
HERE , we saw the rise of the psuedos - activists , advocates, comics, artists, public servants, spiritual leaders, mediamen, causes...... Religiousity is so evident.
HERE, where the idea of a SUPREME BEING is monetized through chain devotional letters and prayers.
HERE, where the value of friendships is based on always agreeing (FRIENDS USE TO AGREE TO DISAGREE.)
HERE , where we unfollow friends because we hate their guts but you don't want them to know about it . (aka FRIENEMIES)
HERE, where we blatantly condemn Paedophilia but we visit porn sites well...once in a while (lang naman daw) oblivious that we contribute to human trafficking.
HERE, one can be like a mother theresa , the dalai lama.... a saviour or a hero (shivers.....) for a day.
in the middle of the pixelated world , a pedestal was erected by US , where a single figure that looks like human has two faces -
one is TRUTH.
the other is DECEIT.
nose bleeding, my train of thought ends here. it seems open ended....
i think i have ADHD.
